I recall reading about the phenomena of people believing in the “shadowy cabal secretly in control of everything” like the Illuminati because deep down, the idea that something in control, even if evil, was preferable to the knowledge that there was nothing in control - things just happen, almost at random.
I do see a bit of this leaking through what you’ve said here in the uses of “chaos,” “certainty,” and “comfort” in your statements. To be clear, I don’t really care if your faith is what you use to shield yourself from the uncertainty of existence - everyone has their own coping mechanisms - but I figured I’d make note of it.
Now, I do take issue with your other claim - who said there is no hope of things getting better? If it is just down to us to dictate things, we have been presented a problem, and I’m not inclined to believe humanity has run into a whole lot of problems we couldn’t solve. We’ve persisted for thousands of years - I wouldn’t count us out just yet.
Of course, if it is NOT up to us, and it is all dictated by God, then why should we simply give up and assume things will never get better? Is there somewhere God has dictated that it cannot be so? What actual evidence do we have, both theologically and scientifically, that things have no hope of getting better (particularly as much of our advancement flies in the face of such an assertion)?
If God put us here with no plan, then it is up to us to make the world better, and if God put us here with a plan, then it is a question of free will, (and I’m inclined to operate under the idea that we possess such a thing) then it is up to us to find out the path to things getting better. As the saying goes: “God helps those who help themselves.”
In short, I can live in this world because I believe it can be made better, without the need for divine intervention, and because I cannot believe that a world filled with so many wonderful things is not worth trying to improve/save.
Then my question is: why were we created? Was it just to experience suffering? Why would a benevolent god decide “yeah, they need to suffer for awhile and then they get to be happy?” And before you comment something about it being necessary for some purpose of being saved or somesuch, again, why would that be necessary? Do we fundamentally lack something that is a needed prerequisite to experience some kind of end goal on God can perceive? If that is so, why not simply create us with that prerequisite, since an all-powerful being would certainly be able to do so?
The “prophecy in revelation” you describe further makes me question the purpose of things. If God is all-powerful, why have the worsening? Are we simply playthings for a bored and capricious divine being to torment so we behave in the afterlife he controls?
For that matter, what right does any being have to my worship and admiration? If I am supposedly created by God, then I was made in such a way as to be capable of demanding a reason for him to be the object of my worship.
I mean, is that so much worse than knowing an all-powerful being that you are ruled by created cruelty? Either god created everything or he didn’t - with the understanding that if there is something he did not create, he is not all powerful.
I think it is much easier to accept that people are both capable of incredible evil and incredible good. Humans are cruel just for the hell of it has an obvious other side: humans are kind just for the hell of it too.